THIS WEEK I HAVE FELT CRAZY, HAVE I LOST MY HEAD?

DO YOU EVER HAVE WEEKS WHERE YOU FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING YOU TOUCH TURNS TO DUST? THIS IS THAT WEEK FOR ME. FIRST IT STARTED BY ME DROPPING THINGS, THEN SAYING THE WRONG THINGS, AFTER THIS MY BOSS DECIDED THAT SHE WOULD FORGET TO DO MY HAIR FOR ME. ALL I WANTED WAS A FEW HOURS OF HER TIME. SHE WAS THE ONE THAT OFFERED FIRST ALSO MAY I ADD. SO ABOUT TWO WEEKS AGO WE WERE SUPPOSE TO MEET TO GET THIS DONE. WELL SHE HAD OTHER PLANS AND WANTED TO WAIT. SHE EVEN SAID SHE WOULD MAKE AN APPOINTMENT FOR ME AND PAY FOR IT. I WAS SO VERY HAPPY AND GREATFUL AT THE TIME. WELL SATERDAY CAME AND WENT, AND NO SHE DIDN'T TAKE ME, AND HAD NOT EVEN MADE THE APPOINTMENT. SHE SAID SHE WOULD TRY TO DO IT HERSELF FIRST. I WAS STILL HAPPY SHE WANTED TO DO MY HAIR, THEN SUNDAY CAME, AND SHE WAS NOT HOME WHEN I CALLED HER, I CALLED AGAIN, AND STILL NOT THERE. SO THEN WENT BY HER HOUSE THINKING MAYBE AFTER A FEW HOURS SHE WOULD REMEMBER. SO I TOOK THE DIVE AND SAID FORGET IT, AND I TRIED IT MYSELF. NOW I KNOW EVERYONE ELSE WOULD THINK THAT IT WAS A MASSIVE RUIN, BUT I KIND OF LIKE BEING DIFFERERNT. I KNOWT THAT THE FELLOW EMPLOYEES AND MY BOSS WILL FEEL DIFFERENTLY. MOST LIKELY I'LL HAVE TO REDYE IT, OR MAYBE SHE'LL FINALLY REALIZE I WAS TIRED OF WAITING. I WAITED ALL DAY SATERDAY MY DAY OFF, I CLEANED THE APT SO I WOULD BE READY WHEN SHE CALLED AND SHE NEVER DID. THANK GOODNESS I DIDN'T WAIT AROUND FOR HER SUNDAY. SHE NEVER EVEN HAD THE DECENCY TO CALL. IT SEEMS LIKE A LOT OF PEOPLE HAVE EXCUSES FOR ME RIGHT NOW IN THE MOST IMPORTANT TIME OF MY LIFE. THIS IS NOT WHAT I NEED. BREADCHICK NO NEED TO WORRY I WON'T RUN FROM THE ALTER, I MAY JUST RUN FROM MY MOM'S MOTHER THOUGH. LOL OK ENOUGH OF THE COMPLAINING FOR TONIGHT. GOD MUST THINK I AM NEVER HAPPY.
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Great famous influences in my life in order of Apperance..

In my life I have influences...... They come and go like the clouds moving in the sky, but they remain forever in my mind.

Annie made me believe that I could be somone

Punky Brewster gave me hope that I could remain happy and cheerful even in the worst of times.

Madonna was brave, strong, and willing to tell it like it is.

Angela Chase "My so-called Life" was a regular teenage not a made up image of something stero-typed but true.

Joan "Joan of Arcadia" brought the hope back into my life like maybe just maybe a girl could exist that wasn't what the media expected of her.

Rory and Laurali "Gilmore Girls" the relationship I wish I could have had with my mother, once it a while it clicks, but not often. I found this show also on the edge...Different and that's what drew me to all these characters presented.

These are the Women "Famous" who have given me hope.

Maybe I'll tell you...
about the ones
I knew...
the not so famous ones...
for now, I say adu.....

123...... Contact

Life is strange, especially when people highlight one moment, beyond all the rest. I look at my life and wonder where did the time go. The precious seconds of youth that I spent on the play ground with friends, picking indian ink flowers in my grandmother's field by the lake, reading by the water, or in my room alone. My friends that I became so attached to, yet one day they sailed away in a boat on to a new adventure among new companions, and it make you wonder where they went. Then you begin to wonder to where your path lies. Where will I sail? Every life I can touch, give hope, or leave a goodripple that will create a path for someone else is it enough to save humanity? I hope so....... Because if I don't try and save it....
who will.....

Wedding day.... creeping up like a tigger...

Ok, I remember thinking that my wedding day would never
come, and now it is so close. Everyone keeps asking me if I am nervous. I don't know why people do this, LOL. I think it's kind of silly. I think I would be more nervous meeting Madonna then marrying someone I have known for almost five years! Yeah, it's kind of scary since it is suppose to be forever, but that's the way it is. I think I'm more nervous about everything getting set up right, my mother not freaking out over the small stuff, ect. The question of will everyone I invited get along? I hope I don't trip over my dress, or mess up repeating words. The scariest thing is I hope I don't cry like a little sissy, I tend to get emotional in front of people, and even though I was laughing at our vows last week, and how cheesy they are ,well I could be crying instead. People say that is what a wedding does to you espeically your own. I am nervous that I will feel silly in the Gazebo, or tent which ever I end up getting married in depending on the unusual Michigan weather.) It will definetly be "My so-Called Chaos"-Alanis
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TEN MUST READS RECOMMENDED BY ME

TEN MUST READS RECOMMENDED BY ME.
These are books I have read in the past two years that have touched my heart, and soul. I think anyone would enjoy them. It is time for you to sit back, relax, read the list, and go find out if these books would also benifit you!

1. "The Five People You Meet in Heaven" by Mitch Albom. ( I have not seen this film."

2. "Legally Blonde" by Amada Brown ( I really enjoyed this book a bit more then the movie even though I watched it first.)

3. "The Last Book In the Universe" by Rodman Philbrick. (He also wrote "Freak the Mighty" great book.

4. "The sisterhood of the Traveling Pants" by Ann Brashares (Movie is enjoyable, but the book is a must read 1st!)

5. "Raymayana" retold by William Buck (I read this book for a Mythology class, and it is really enjoyable.)

6. "The Dangerous Lives of Alter Boys" by Chris Fuhrman (I'd heard about this book from my fiance's brother. It's a clasic if you ask me.)

7. " Under the Tuscan Sun" by Frances Mayes( belive me the book is better!)

8. "The Green Mile" by Stephan King (Words cannot express how axsome this novel is. It's not just scary, it's an emotional high, low, and inbetween.)

9. "An Egg on three sticks" by jackie moyer fishcher (One of my best friends recommended this novel to me. I just couldn't put it down.)

10. One of Oprah's books none the less...... "White Oleander" by Janet Fitch (The movie isn't bad, it's just they took to much out like so many films do.)

These are books I have read over the last couple of years. Looking back to be honest, I need to start reading much more. I could recomend some I read for classes, but to many at a time to choose from can be tough. So TTFN-ARCADIA

Finding a Home in Six months, only hope.

Some may say that I am crazy for even trying on our budget. They would say WAIT, STOP, Don't move forward! I want to try, because I really need a place to call my own. A place that I can put my whole self into. Even though we have just begun to save for a down payment I want to try because our rent did go up again. Yes, world I know it is still cheap compared to most area's, but it is not cheap when you think about how much you've just spent in a year on something that belongs to someone else. The other factors are you have to live under someone else's rules and regulations. One of my biggest peeves is the "No Pets Allowed." I understand why, but everyone must pay because of those who don't know how to take care of their pets. I guess I am Crazy because right now I just pray we can find a home by the end of November when our lease is up. It would be so nice not to have to listen to music coming through our walls because we wouldn't have to live in a building with stupid people. Yes, more responsibilities and more bills, but I'd be wiling to deal. Eight more Credits, and I"ll be free from college forever. I know I should go back get a big degree and be someone. The problem is I want a life. I don't want to be famous, glamorous, or anything. I just want to be a Dreamer, like John Lennon.....(That's four you Mel.)
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"LIfe goes on and so do we just how we do it is no Mystery"-Empty Nest

Ok, Just another Saterday evening. I didn't even think about going out on the town with the gas prices. I got right out of work to high tail it home. I ate dinner with my loving fiance, and sat down for a nice long film compliments of the library "Antwone Fisher." It was over all a very good film. Now I am just plan tired.
My Achivements this semester: 3.0 in Painting
3.5 in Pop Culture
So I made the honor role again, but only managed to get an overall G.P.A. of 3.05. So I really didn't pull my grades up much, but I did learn a lot. I guess that's what counts after all.

Another Semester, another LIfe, LOL

Ok, so another semester has come and gone in my academic life. This is my last week of college. I have been working on an article for my Pop Culture class. So far I think it is pretty decent. I pray that when I present it to my Prof as a draft I won't have to many things to change. I am however worried that it won't be up to par, and I'll be pulling an all nighter on wenesday night. We shall see. I also have a painting I need to finish tomorrow, Ugh!!!! We shall see on that too. My last day is offically on Thursday for both classes, but I think my painting Prof would like me to finish the painting tommorrow evening, granted I'll probably be there til nine O'clock in the evening painting my heart away. God, just let me get through this semester with a 3.0 average.
Then I can strive for success next fall with my internship, granted I get one, and then finish out in May, and the summer to get my Certificate in Early Childhood. It's been quite a life, of coarse I wish others could face what I have and understand it, but the only person who will understand is Mckinly.
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