Ready for a Change

I am so ready for something to be different in my life. It seems like everything leads to the same ending. This ending is disasterious or leaves me with the feeling of having to start over again from square one. It's like my landlord raising my rent when I finally feel I am able to start saving. I yearn for the ability to choose my own rules instead of live underneath someone else's no matter how much more responsibility it will be. I am willing to give up what I have to in order to get their. I am willing to eat Ramon noodles, spagetti, potatoes, and all the sale frozen vegies possible. I am willing to go without the meat. LOL.
College is another vice that must be dealt with. I still have to finish those three classes that are right now holding me back from finding a new door to open. One that will hopefully lead to a better life. I try to look at things in a postive light, like this dilema will push me forward into trying to accomplish the goals I want to succeed in. It is not as easy as it is to write down on a computer screen. It is a large task at hand to complete in a year. I just can't see myself paying so much in rent and going no where for it. My future husband and I already know it is not easy to live. I only hope and pray that I can push forward instead of back.

The Need to Succeed, Subsides.

Ok, so maybe I am a little bit of an overachiver for my IQ size, but I think I am finally over wanting to be more then who I already am. Again, it may just be the end of the semester! That is really sad since this semester has not been as difficult as the last couple of years of my education. I am however looking forward to my summer vacation. I go from acadamia, to workaholic, LOl. I have to start saving since my college is raising it's tuition yet again. I hope to finish school real soon. That is within this coming fall and spring semester if god grants me the rights, as well as oppertunities. I am ready and willing to throw in the towel of knowledge, only after I achive a small feet of a Certificate in early childhood. Yet I feel like I am defeated in those who I wished to push on the ground. The people who said I'd never be anyone but a bagger at a grocery store, or fast food sever, ect. However many college graduates our, its our society, the way things are being played against the smaller people, and it's getting worse. Yet you who read my blogs never comment on them, so how am I to know that you even care about my plight or others? In my defense and others, start standing up, or don't complain. I've been pushing myself for almost ten years of college now. I am still a small person, they are still pushing the brick down on me. The harder I try to climb up that ladder the quicker they are laying the bricks down. The bricks for the elite to stay strong, and the average man or women to get weaker. Is this what you really want? This is why my need to succeed has subsided. I am tired from the fight, and many others don't even want to attempt it. This is a "sick sad world" As Daria would say.
ARCADIA-losing hope for our future......Give me hope and Comment!!!!!!

Late into the Latte Hours

Deep purple haze glancing up at you from the sky above, defenitely a not scence in the Latte hours of the night. Once again it happens to be Easter upon us, yet work contines. It is nothing new to me, but what one must do to keep existing, LOL. I do love those co-workers of mine, always willing to make me laugh or smile when everything seems rotten. They give me just the pick me up I need whenever I wonder, God what did I do to deserve this? Then I have to pick my brain, and come up with the realistic conclusion as always that I could be worse off. Ha ha, that some would kill to have my job, because it does pay my bills, and I do get to see a lot of nice people most of the time. So in the end I feel a little better. Homework has been put aside, but I shall pick it up again come monday. I have a book I"m way behind in reading. Also I need to write two papers. It'll happen, but I'd rather Paint.
ARCADI "The wanderer of life"

ugh unbelievable

All I can say is some people cease to amaze me.

Waiting...

Well my green trees Rock site is acting funny. I don't know,but for some reason it is unclear why my post is wayyy below my profile data. Hmm it's fishy and I dont like it. Although I can't figure out how to fix it. Well not much is going on. It's the end of my spring semester. It has been pretty good so far. I'm waiting on an exam, and need to begin a paper. How exciting is that? LOL, where have all my fans gone. This site is like a ghost town, probably like the JOA site right now. I feel kind of bad that I haven't visited in a long time. I don't really have much to say about the show though, It was great. Now it's just gone. So what can you do? I just continue to try to send out goodripples to people.