The weekend's end

THanksgiving..... the break you need away from school when, and where:

1. You say your going to catch up on your homewok, and You don't waiting til the last minute to cram it all in.

2. Instead you go christmas shopping, stuff yourself with goodies, and buy a few frivouls items everyone would yell at you for!!!

3. Then afterward it's a saterday night, you finish your ten pointer, have one lesson plan done, only needing one more to complete your math paper.

4. Realize that you are going to be putting a paper plan together in three days instead of a week!!!

5. Then I realize I really am tired of school. Tired of everyone telling me it's worth it, and tired, and fustrated and screaming!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just leave me alone, Of coarse it's all in my head, everyone must think that I am sweet, innocent and good.

6. Then I do my homework anyway, and still worry whether it will be good enough for a decent grade.

TTFN, tired of brain work.

What's going on?

Another day of math, it went ok, I did better on this ten pointer :) . It's still hard to think about what is going to happen with everything. School, and my life. I once had a friend ask, how can you keep an online journal, how can you expose yourself like that to the world. I just want to be known. I want people to learn from me in a positive way, Maybe even learn what not to do in your lives.
One problem that has popped up is one of my friends has chosen not to attend a class much, and she only shows up to our tutoring sesesions when she can. This may mean the end of tutoring for me. It's already bad enough that another member who signed up never attends either. Once they miss three times my time could be up. I still need to go over a lot of Geometry I didn't get, and also I have my other class to worry about.
It doesn't help that my fiance and I got into a fight last night. Well what really happened is he just got mad at me and stormed out. Latter he explained himself to me and why he was mad. I guess I understood, but I have a lot going on to. Ugh. Oh well life is full of complications. Everyone says that is what make it so interesting, I beg to differ.
So today after work I am going to start my new Ten pointer, go over my notes for math, then Tuesday after I get up work on my math book report. After that I hope I can get to my paper plan for project one. I am trying to take all of this step my step. I really want to take those classes that I signed up for this next semester, but I may have to take math over again. I had a source that said I should just get back on the wagon and take it with a different professor. I just don't know how understanding those other professor will be about my disability that has never been documented. I mean some of the mistakes I make, I don't even know if I know I am making them. It's like I'm spaced out, and then latter when I go back I understand what I did. I know I should really be tested, and all the excuses I come up with such as time, money really does play a factor into it. Things are kind of tight right now in that area when I think about payinf for next semester all on my own.
I still wonder why god doesn't want me. I asked him last night why I see so many people moving ahead of me and he won't let me follow. I always lag behind the rest so what good am I. yeah some people tell me I"m a breath of fresh air, but sometimes I don't know if I am just putting on a show, giving my audience what they want to hear.
Arcadia

I need sleep.... I need sleep zzzzzzz

It's been one heck of a week, but not to shabby. I passed my first math test. I did not do as well as I had hoped, but I made it through. I have gotton on average about five hours of sleep a night, and am in a mode of major tiredness. I need to sleep. I have so much to do, thank goodness I had the brains to start my ten pointer tonight. If I am lucky I have gotton all, but three problems done that are due on monday. This will give me time to get started on a book report for math, and hopefully have it finished a week before it's due. I have another project for a Cultural Diversity class that is going to take much longer. I have a paper plan and a book to begin reading.

TTFN-ta ta for now......
Arcadia

Blah, blah,

Ok, so I am tired, cranky, and a pain in the ass. I don't want to do math anymore. I want to sit on my ass watching T.V. and allowing my brain to gather into mush. I want loads of chocolete candies, video's, DVD's and Games. I want money beyond my wildest dreams to buy a home, and a vacation home to boot!!!!!!!!!! So how come all that my good ripples bring me are blessings in love and friendships? Come on come on, don't I deserve to live in style, or at least to have money to pay for college? Welll screw it. I have to get some sleep, and I have a take home test to finish tommorrow like it or not. I"d rather say not. If I wasn't so far a head of the game I'd blow this popsicle stand! I"m stuck....

between that rock and hard place

where only amatures exist..................................................................................................................... Ok people where are you reading my blog?

THE WONDERFUL WORLD OF MATH :)

Well today was pretty eventful. I was able to understand Linear Regression, and Outliers to a point in my tutoring session today. I have a lot of work to do on my next ten pointer, no thrills there! I am so looking forward to it!!! Although it is true, a lot that I am learning right now I will use as a teacher. Today we learned about percentiles! So anywho... now I am being a little devil and relaxing. I spent from 9:00am-2:15 working on math homework in class, outside, and with my tutor. Fun fun... I am almost halfway through a book my Cult teacher wants me to have done for Wenesday, and considering what fun classes might not kill me next semester. That is if I make it through this one. So who knows what the future may hold, or what the hole it is my future might fall through if I"m not careful!!! So Kids, and Adults..... TTFN, ta ta for now...

ArCaDiA

It's another long night of homework. I am working on a ten pointer for math. ahhh what fun. I hope to have it done by tommorrow evening, and done right. I need to start studying for our upcoming test this next week! I want to really improve myself, and since I'm actually understanding most of this Statistics and Probablility I need to take advantage of it. I also need to read these books I borrowed from my professor so I'll be up real late tonight, and then class tommorrow. Thanks be to god that I don't have to work!!! I have to decided on a book to do for my math book report which is loads of work for only ten points. I reallly need these ten points +, but I have no one to help me find a falty graph, so it really sucks. That could give me to extra points towards a ten pointer. So if any of you find a falty graph please let me know where to go and copy it!!! Other then that not much is going on. Just the regular ho hum stuff of life. I gained five pounds back I lost somehow, gosh darn school stress!!!!!!! I hpe to lose it again. It takes me forever to lose it and then I just gain it back anyhow. i feel like saying screw you world, I'll be any wait I want..... Ha ha, what a laugh.

TTFN ta ta for now.

ARCADIA