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AMERICANS: We are tired of struggling in a country where we have so much, yet give our people so little. Budget cuts are being made everywhere. We are less and less: FOR THE PEOPLE, BY THE PEOPLE, it is not about the people anymore, just like T.V. isn't about Quality only ratings. This is my space, this is my quality, hopes, fears, and dreams, my stories I share with you.

Friday, June 30, 2006

Beautiful music makes me whole......

"Music is one of my major healers when I feel like nothing is right in the world. It

gives me hope."- Arcadia


As hard as it sometimes gets my chipperness still stays and somehow I keep going, dreaming, and believing, and people keep believing in me. My heart sometimes wonders why, and I wonder how I"m gonna screw it up again. It seems like so far I have planned my life out pretty well even though it hasn't exactly gone as planned. I have proved that I could go to college, I have fought the good fight, and hope my heart and my essance can keep going for years to come. Thank god to all of you who have been there for me through these trials and tribulations. It's hard for me sometimes to continue, but somehow I do. Sometimes I wonder if it is better that I know what is going on and that the wool cannot be pulled over my eyes, that I can see the big picture the world the conflicts that deflect peace, and the power people use against each other instead of postive energy. I hope that I can make my life speak to everyone, and that I can adapt, respect, and love those for who they are, and not who we want them to be.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Bad Dreams/Smooth sailing....

I woke up at six am this morning in fear. I had the worst nightmare about a close friend I've known since first grade. I don't want to go into detail, but she died in my dream. It was on a saterday night, and she was still currently in college. I really hope this was just a dream like I kept telling myself this morning. I finally was able to go back to sleep. It's really freaky when you dream dreams that seem so real! This only happens to me when I am really tired, and I have been having a hard time sleeping lately.
On a postive note we were able to get a new televison trade for the evil one that quite working. We also had our computer re-done because of virus problems and put a a new virus protector. I really hate those nasty people that put virus on others computers. It is of coarse a cyber war out there. In order to help save for our future home my husband and I down graded our cable to 13 channels. I am also hoping it will curb my habit of always turning to the T.V. for entertainment. When I was a kid I wanted me time, so I would always have to go to my room to get away from everyone. Since when your a kid there isn't much to do in your room I would read, color, or find some other way to be creative. Now as an adult with many options and choices I find that this creativity has been lost with gaining accessablity to things I didn't have as a kid.
I haven't even Painted one painting since the end of my Painting One class. One reason I give myself is I wouldn't dare want to spill turpintine in the apt. It's not ours and I would have to replace the carpeting, and that would be a big mess. This is another reason I hope for a home. I have to think about things though like where I will work and have that established before we rush into anything so it will still be a while. I was hoping it would be at the end of this year. Well we'll see what happens, one day at a time.
Arcadia

Monday, June 12, 2006

BAD T.V.

Here is one of my complaints about life, so finally everything seems right with the world. You feel you are heading somewhere and bam!!!! Another obstacle flys into your life. So tonight I came home after a real long day. I mean I had plans, but they changed when my dad called me the night before to tell me my grandfather had congestive heart failure. So John and I took a trip to Cadillac to see him. He is doing well now, but still who knows when I would get the chance to see him again. After looking over wedding pictures with my dad and his girlfriend my husband and I went to eat at the Bistro a quaint little Cafe for lunch. We split a Quesadia meal, and it was very filling and good. Then we went to Visit my Grandfather. It was an awfully nice visit and he did seem to be doing a lot better then even at my wedding. So after I continued my plans to find new pants in T.C.. So first thinking thirfty I went to Goodwill where I work, and none of the pants I tried on fit. So my old stand by Steve n Berry's where I found two nice pairs of pants, unfortuantely size 14 fit better then size 12. Now things seemed to be going fine ordinary day right. Well went to Wal-mart and got a cool t-shirt for five bucks of the beatles, as well as at the mall I had got a book I wanted and some new underwear LOL. ok so we get home and my hubby starts to fix dinner and turn on the tele to see if anything good is on. Well as I left to go do laundry john see's a light on the t.v. and it goes out. Now this darn T.V. is only seven months old! We got it on sale from Best Buy, and man I am not happy. So we call Best Buy it's ten to nine and they are not suppose to close at nine, but no one answers. So we got all of our stuff together for tommorrow hoping that we can get a new T.V. still, we are still making payments on the darn thing for goodness sakes. They wanted us to get an extended warrenty, but it did come with one year manufactures so I hope to god in heaven that they will do something. If not I'm buying a little piece of crap from Wal-mart and Vow never to buy another product from them again. Gosh I have so had it with these gadgets. I don't think I'll ever go for a wide screen t.v. ever again. Give me a good old T.V. from the day when they came in cases that covered em in plastic with foots to set em on. No HDTV crap and good old Publich Televison, but nope the capitolistic jerks had to take it and ruin it for those of us who still believe in quality. Thank god I have a lot of books to read becuz if I end up without t.v. I"m gonna need em. My friend tonight was like you can still watch movies, and I was like nope not without a t.v. it's dead!!!!
Down with the new, and bring back the old! "They just don't make em like they use to." It's the one thing I can agree upon with my elders.

Saturday, June 03, 2006

I"m offically a tired married women

Ok, so the wedding went off pretty well. I did end up walking down to the song I originally wanted totally by accident, but that's cool. It felt like a whirl wind. Everyone was taking pictures, I was able to eat a bit, but not much. We did some pretty cool stuff. We did the chicken dance lol, the hookey pokey (pretty reminisance because my grandma betty and I use to do this.) Then some dancing, and horrible Karikoi if you ask me! Thank god I lived. Currently my new husband has decided to fall asleep without me and I am getting close to crashing with him. My head is throbbing, I had to help clean up, but it was still fun. I was able to see tons of people who I normally wouldn't see, and even with the bit of rain we got it all worked out. It was kind of a miracle even if it only was a little one it meant a lot to me! Thanks to all who helped!