Not yet walking on sunshine, but close, much closer
AMERICANS: We are tired of struggling in a country where we have so much, yet give our people so little. Budget cuts are being made everywhere. We are less and less: FOR THE PEOPLE, BY THE PEOPLE, it is not about the people anymore, just like T.V. isn't about Quality only ratings. This is my space, this is my quality, hopes, fears, and dreams, my stories I share with you.
I am having a bad day. I had a whole blogger written, good too. I hate this life, I hate this world, I hate everything that makes us ethnocentric.
Once again there is nothing positive to write about. If I could I would find a deep rivine and go hide in it to cry. I just failed a math test I studied for all weekend, come to find out I also failed my linguistics mid-term. I have tried for year, it is getting tiresome. I need a pep talk, not the usual either. I did study for both of these darn things. Of course I couldn't remember that derivational word creation ment we could use the word along with other letters added like personal when she said we had to use person I thought she ment new words by only using those letters in the word person. All the world is full of bullshit, and no matter how hard you try to fit into that shit, I don't I"m a square in a round bowl full of people. My purpose is only as I once said to push others up, and for me to stay down at the bottome of the bunny hill. If I had a choice and it wouldn't cost me money I would choose not to attend my classes any longer. I would choose to do something else. I hate to quit, I don't think I am a quitter, but isn't there a time when you have to admit defeat?
someone once told me what if things don't get better, what if they keep going wrong? It is something that I have never wanted to believe; being the optimistic person I am. I try to take inspiration from those around me as well as artistic expressions that give me hope. Joan of Arcadia being one of them, along with Annie, Hope, Ellen Foster, Erin Brockovitch, ect. Right now I am going through a phase where I just feel sad. There are so many things going on all at once, and I just have to let them go and think of college. It's not only that some of it seems like it is a separation of even this life. I feel like it is something outside of me, maybe it's just the world, and how I perceive it.
Hi guys.