Dreaming, and praying to find a more permanent residence.

(Originally posted at myspace, on the same date today. sorry for the inconvience but you will no longer be able to access my space from this site. It has been set to private, becuz u never know who's out there. Sorry for the inconvience to my friends who don't have a myspace :( )


Ok, so I finally feel like maybe I have had it. I am so wanting to be able to have a place of our own. Renting sometimes is something that most of us have had to deal with in our lives, if you are one of the lucky ones, you haven't had to do this. It isn't bad, but it is not fun. Currently I have a lot to do before I can even be like, that house is sooo cute I want it. I have done a bit of searchin and found that just maybe my dream might be possible. We have to go speak with a real estate agent, hoping we can find someone to help us find a decent affordable home on a tight budget. Then the other thing that is hard is that I want to finish school. I would like to at least have my associates in early childhood. I know some may think I have a lot on my plate, but I can't just stand by and keep givin my hard earned money away for nothing, if this could be possible. So I figure I'll get out there, and attack, to see if it is possible. I'm not sure if I'll always be in the retail business either and that bothers me cuz they don't like it when ya switch jobs. Gosh I know I am dreamin, but i"m gonna keep prayin, becuz I need a place to call my own, paint my own, sing my own, dream on my own, and be able to park w/o wonderin why I have to pay, and worry about a place to park my car cuz their arent' enough parkin spots and no spots are assigned, and more people keep movin in and how are we all suppose to park here? It's rough guys, n where i live u have to have a car, or ya don't get anywhere, public transit is bad. So all of ya out there holla to god for me, al right?
SUBDEFECTIVE GILMOre......
save me from the crazy world, give me hope, n send me an angel that will guide me and give me what i need, let me help others, but don't let them hurt me, it is a life of hope that I am looking for something to believe in, and more.
A bit of poetry from my side of maddness......